Concluding A Day

The rain has stopped. Busy day at an end. Bare legs wrapped in the comforter, hair spread out on the pillows.

Happiness tonight is a clean body, in a clean room, with a lit candle.

Earlier…Decision To Leave. Texts from the parking garage. A. appearing on the other side of the glass, flushed from the run, misted by rain. His smile through the glass of the CMJ cinema was a miracle. Samgyupsal after with lengthy, deep conversations. We realized we actually had so many things to say to one another. It was so nice to talk about the things that get buried. I felt engaged again and I was smiling like a fool.

I had the most fantastic evening. I feel strong. I feel powerful. I feel excited. I feel independent. I realize these things come in cycles. I realize that I will stumble and fall, but I have felt such an incredible feeling of hope and strength tonight and I do not want to forget how it feels. Let this be a reminder to me on the nights when happiness does not seem to be attainable. Let this be a reminder to me on the mornings when the day does not feel inspiring. Moments like this will continue to happen.

The world feels different tonight.